Please don't leave me

Please don't leave me da da da da da
Please don't leave me.....desperately sings Pink..Today is the day of this song in my head and computer. There's nothing better than listening to this song and eating fresh, home-made brownies!!!!with a lot of warm tea...
What makes me write here today? The deep depression I feel in my entire body and mind..it's like an invasion of old thoughts mixed with random stuff that has just happened to me and it's all getting together in a big pile of heavy structure for my small head...ufff..can't take it anymore.

Da da dada adaddadadada...I don't know if I can yell any louder!!!!!!!!!!!! singing is what saves me from this world of loneliness. this lack of socializing brings me down..every day more and more. But I hate fakeness and people trying to pretend something they're not!!!
Please don't leave me!

When there's nothing else to do...

It is raining today and I really don't feel like going out...but I'd rather write on my blog so that I can at least get this pressure out of my head.
What has happened to me these days??? I went to a fabulous concert in Bucharest "B'estfest" where Moby and Carlos Santana performed...mmmm....it was great, especially when people were singing along! :) I stayed in a nice hotel and slept a lot after all the crazy party we had...
Now I don't feel like I'm very happy anymore..hopefully I'm gonna get over it soon. I just feel very alone and helpless but it happens to have such feelings...the sad thing is that it happens way too often..and that bothers me.
A few days ago I heard someone saying I am really shy...WHAT? ok, maybe I am..but not all the time and not that shy. Sometimes I just feel like there's no one out there who can actually see the real person in me..and that is very sad. No matter how hard I try to be social and get along well with everybody, people eather try to use me, nor to treat me like a weak person..I am sick and tired of fighting those who are fake and try to show up as being very smart and succesfull...bullshit!
The honesty is gone!!!
I am not inlove now!
I don't feel love though I really want to.........:(